Saturday, March 6, 2010

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The lining of the inner man

As I wrote more I'm outed in private and would by most people at least to Eric mentioned, although the pronoun no means always - but more often - right.
which gives it exceptions that irritate me every time and every time more. Thus, in a good friend who I see rarely.
The invitation for brunch, I am happy to accept - and clueless until I to her friends that I know too superficially for years, met. It was a little deja-vu, similar to last year's event, I was hit again, only this time with greater violence. Oh, and here I am still L. - I almost blurted me, when me an me until then unknown woman presented with their name. I'm E. ... swallow - uh, I'm L.
While I usually do not (hardly) have problems in environments in which I am not outed, to feel myself and feel good because I am among people with whom I can, this was lunch today continuous Unbehaglichfühlen marked. Again such a cork feeling ... whether buoyant, weird, twisted and wrong - as would dress up in my inner man - and he usually does not the costume outside woman hands him as completely as permanent costume
I'm no one at other people's birthday brunch times loose a Coming Out lying down - that I would find reckless, people even came not because of me - yet I must address this somehow because two such birthday parties reach for good - both times I had with more or less flimsy reasons squashed early.

A. White himself of what haunts me - but so far stayed with L. and this is not a devaluation of my person and my feeling, do we know each other too long and for that we consider ourselves far too much. And of course I expect her auch nicht, dass sie ihren Freunden MICH erklärt, dass muss und will ich dann wohl schon selbst tun.

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